There’s that moment of vulnerability, when the words hit the page and you can’t take them back.
When years have passed, when the “pondering heart” moves from silence to contemplation to revelation.
Well, my friends. It has has been quite an adventure that my not-so-little family has lived these nearly two years. An unexpected Christmas Eve gift in the return of a daughter, long estranged and a victim of horrific domestic violence…then the valiant and heartrending 6 month battle fought by this family to bring her children here. The necessary protective silence, to keep these young women hidden and secure, while we continued to help them rebuild through much suffering. Some wounds are so deep, so hidden, so painful…the process of overcoming 13 years of torment is no small thing…and the work of it? Ongoing.
But there have been many joys, as well. Baptisms and Confessions. First Holy Communions and Confirmations. Death and birth in the same day. Family reunions and birthday celebrations. Holidays never before shared…the beauty of a Catholic culture that four little girls had never known existed, a life apart from what they had ever known.
Our family is altered…and a little rocked at times by the transformation and cooperation necessary for thirteen people to share one home. It is loud, messy, busy and distracting. And the answer to years and years of prayers and sacrifice offered by every member of this family. Years of prayers, answered in the most unexpected way, but at the perfect time.
I’m working towards finding the words again. Towards emptying my heart of all these treasures, pondered upon for so long. I must…to make room for so many other things true, good, and beautiful. Rejoice with us, this hard but answered prayer, would you? Our God is a God of miracles and surprises and I’m living one I never thought I’d live to see.